Death Valley, Spain

Friday 14 August 2009


The Real Thrill - For all those who absolutely love living life on the edge!!
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El Caminito del Rey (The King's little pathway)
El Chorro, Málaga, Spain

"De Profundis"

Thursday 19 February 2009


Each and every time thou will make me fall,

Each and every time, I will stand.
Enough relying on you…
Enough pinning faith on what’s engraved on my hand.

Faced all your wrath and tantrums,
Thought one day, you will show me ‘The light’.
But the endless spells, you had cast…
I should have known, I am alone in my fight.

Thy cruelty is far beyond,
No matter how evil am I!
You led me on the road to perdition,
And you mocked at my each cry.

Oh dear!... listen to me now.
Thy never ending anathema has come to a halt.
No more damned am I!
And thy name shall never be called.

© Honey Digra

“Cauchemar” - Sleep Paralysis

Thursday 15 January 2009


Perhaps you've experienced the sensation-while awakening or falling asleep-of not being able to move. You discover that your body is paralyzed. Although you may try to call out, the sound remains locked in your throat. Meanwhile, your mind is clamoring to know what's going on.
"Sleep Paralysis" American Medical Association Guide to Better Sleep, l984.


Couple of weeks back, it happened again for the second time. I was having an afternoon nap and suddenly I felt the presence of some invisible force. I wanted to get up from my sleep but I could not. I could not even open my eyes and I was scared to death. The fact that I was not able to fight it made me all the more scared. Well this was a very mild one as I had experienced the worst. Around four years ago (in 2005), I became the victim of sleep paralysis. I was choked; could not open my eyes; I was thrown out of my bed (though in real I was still on the bed); and I felt the presence of some force. I knew it was not a dream but it was not the reality either. But it was so close to real. It was like I was trapped in my sleep and the only solution was to get up. And then there was this OBE. Anyways!

I did some research on it and I happened to bump into the word ‘Cauchemar’. It is a French word and it means ‘nightmare, bad dream’. Find the roots below:

“Where does the word nightmare come from? The English word for evil spirit or incubus is mare, a word that comes from the Sanskrit mara, meaning ‘crusher’. The French word for nightmare, cauchemar, also contains the root mare, while ‘caucher’ means to trample. At some time in history people started to confuse mare or merrie, which meant a female horse, with the other meaning of mare of an evil spirit. Maybe a further complication happened because of the existence of a Teutonic goddess Mara who would changed herself in a white merrie to visit a sleeping man at night.”

And this nightmare is often related to sleep paralysis. And I also checked the exact definition of sleep paralysis. This is what I have got from medicinenet.com –

Sleep paralysis: “A frightening form of paralysis that occurs when a person suddenly finds himself or herself unable to move for a few minutes, most often upon falling asleep or waking up. Sleep paralysis is due to an ill-timed disconnection between the brain and the body. The symptoms of sleep paralysis include sensations of noises, smells, levitation, paralysis, terror, and images of frightening intruders. Once considered very rare, about half of all people are now believed to experience sleep paralysis sometime during their life. Sleep paralysis strikes as a person is moving into or out of REM (rapid eye movement) sleep, the deepest part of sleep. During REM sleep the body is largely disconnected from the brain leaving the body paralyzed. Sleep paralysis is the result of premature (or persistent) mind-body disconnection as one is about to enter into (or exit from) REM sleep. Sleep paralysis occurs most often after jet lag or periods of sleeplessness that interrupt the normal REM patterns. It affects both sexes equally and occurs at all ages but is most common in teenagers. Sleep paralysis can be familial and may be genetic (inherited) in some cases. An attack of sleep paralysis is usually harmless and self-limited. It tends to be over in a minute or two as soon as the brain and body re-establish connections and the person is able to move again. However, the memory of the terrifying sensations felt during sleep paralysis can long endure. (Some scholars believe that sleep paralysis may account for some of the old claims of attacks by witches and the more recent "reports" of nocturnal abduction by space aliens.) A rare fatal form of sleep paralysis may, it is thought, underlie the cases of healthy teenagers, mainly in Southeast Asia, who die in their sleep, sometimes after fighting for breath but without thrashing around. Sleep paralysis goes by a number of names, including the "old hag" in Newfoundland (for an old witch thought to sit on the chest of the paralyzed sleeper), "kokma" in the West Indies (for a ghost baby who jumps on the sleeper's chest and attacks the throat), "kanashibari" in Japan and "gui ya" or ghost pressure in China (because a ghost is believed to sit on and assault the sleeper). Medically, sleep paralysis is sometimes called waking paralysis, predormital (before-sleep) paralysis, postdormital (after-sleep) paralysis, and REM sleep atonia.”
If I were to go by the above definitions, my paralysis was more of a waking paralysis or postdormital paralysis. In my case, it happened when my sleep was more in the lucid state as I was about to wake up. According to some sources (as you read in the last paragraph), it has a supernatural side to it too. There was a case study done on supernatural assault tradition in Southwest Louisana. You can read more about this supernatural narrations and witch riding experiences at this link:

Contemporary Cauchemar: Experience, Belief, Prevention by Katherine Roberts

All I know it was a very frightening experience. And now that I have experienced it twice, I really don’t find anything scientific about it but at the same time I don’t buy any witch riding justification also. Anyway, hoping not to go through it again….

If interested in knowing more, you can visit these sites:
Sleep Paralysis
Dream World
Sleep - A Dynamic Activity